Mood according to the Environment..!
We wake up daily on time, before or after. We don't have the same mood, it we can feel when we have our first glance in the mirror. Yes, but we don't know what we are going to do today, may be it would be the same day as yesterday or it might possible we would have another type of MOOD today. What i am feeling today, it's quite difficult for me to share and it can be very hard for those who don't want to open up or share anything to anyone. Same as I have a lot of words in my mind but i don't know how to speak them or share with others. May be from my birth i use to inhabit in me, it would be the reason that I frequently used to hide my feeling so that no one can guess my real face or feelings. But now I want to write what i am thinking, what in my mind, each and everything.
On the other hand I am thinking where to start, it is also a great dilemma that when we are going to start writing something about our personals we suddenly feel empty mind inside us which is really a regretful thing. I have a lot of thing blowing in my mind now.1st thing is why people always trying to over smart with us? and the people of my kind always try to ignore them and despite to remove their misunderstanding let them thinking what they are up to. I always tries not be so much straight forward because people might hurts from my words, but yes! some times they crosses all their limits and my words slop-over my mouth.
Then I start thinking that what I ve' done, would they able to listen what i ve said to them. In the meanwhile i felt sad and try to vanish from the world. Alas! it is not in my hands to take my life with my own hands. I started my day with the preparation for office, then acridly rush towards rickshaw standing out side my house. I was seeing all the things running behind me but i wasn't able to count them because i was thinking what i am doing in this world? what i ve done yesterday and what i am going to do today. I have to face the faces i daily sees in my cabin/ row. Entering office i was blank, run towards reception, said Salam to the receptionist enter my name and step forwarder towards stairs, i Ve seen the attendance of my neighborhood chair mate. I entered the room and there's just two more ladies sat on the other section.
I saw her but i don't ve any kind of feeling about her good or bad. Then she start talking to me and searching something on my PC. I didn't said anything to her when she has done i get back my PC. After some times our in charge came and i said to her " your favorite sir is coming" there is nothing wrong in my words. After passing fifteen mints she spokes that "why you r saying wrong thing about sir", i was shocked that i ve done. Then a person enters into the room and she said loudly that " lo phir agya ab sra din chaber chaber kere ga". He was designer of other section. I said calmly that now why you are saying wrong things about him, what he did wrong to you, she said" aisa e to kerta ha" i said "ager tume pasnd nai to ignore kro or apne kam mian buzy raho, but don't say wrong things". She start grumbling something.
I don't know whats on her mind she always tries to become over-smart to me but mostly i ignore her on that she get irritate and start slapping me. Many times I offensively stop her that don't do this i ll' be very harsh with you but she thinks that while doing all these kind of mischievous stuff she is looking so cool or may be a trick to get others attention towards her i dint know what's in her mind. To write all these things is not intentionally to backbiting someone, but tried to show the moods and it's effects which we ve to face many times during the whole day. Sometimes may be we are not understanding others mood, what they are trying to say? may be we are not getting it. Well what i ve guess about her personality that she's try to overrule others but she is not aware of that I am not her king of girl. She is so diplomatic and double faced. Be aware of these kind of people, such kind of person are very dangerous for life and career.
When I close my eyes I can clearly see that a few years before when Politics was not affiliated with our personal lives we feel this freedom with our souls and mind. Now just after some time we are not at that sate of mind to celebrate it with whole heartedly. The only reason behind it that we were HAPPY. Happy doesn't meant here that we does not get all facilities or we are under the pressure or Govt. but here I am talking about the happiness of our souls of our mind's peace. 
We have just lost our happiness in the game of wining life. By what mean we celebrate the day of happiness the day for partition and the day of Freedom while we are still not able to free ourselves from debauchees and luxuries of making ourselves a pride and model for others that what we can do no one can do but the fact is that every one is in the same train and doing similar things. Day by day we are losing our dignity our pride which is not the worldish or temporal things it is our beloved our home land our freedom our PAKISTAN. we lost it in the race of getting more and more. By what mean we celebrate this day today while our Muslim brothers and sister are being murdered in other countries.
